Notes on Change

Are you feeling it too? There’s change coming for sure. Everyone I know or come across (on the internets) seem to be going through something. Either they’re super tired/grumpy/down like they’re resting up for something big and they’re impatient to start, OR they’ve already started and change is happening for them.

If you follow astrology, which I seem to do only when there’s something written in the stars that I want to hear, you’ll know that we have had a few eclipses lately and Mars is apparently doing something which is making everyone angry. The thing to do seems to be just let it go, don’t try to fix it, just let it happen. There is healing in anger and sadness, and sometimes if you rush to fix the discomfort you don’t give yourself a chance to heal or process what’s going on. So I have been sitting with it and it’s felt as uncomfortable as a sauna in the rain forest. 

But having said that, I may be sitting with my discomfort but I've got my laptop propped on my knee and I'm getting stuff done anyway. Now seems to be the time to plant some seeds, which is difficult if you’ve been feeling as lethargic as I have. My friend Maja taught me a new word the other day: Frühjahrsmüdigkeit, it’s German for spring tiredness – “a temporary mood typically characterized by a state of low energy and weariness experienced by many people in springtime. It is not in the category of a diagnosed illness, but rather a phenomenon thought to be initiated by a change in the season”. I’ve had Frühjahrsmüdigkeit pretty badly throughout March and April. 

I can feel it ebbing away a bit now though, there feels like a bit of a vacuum in the air, like a big inhale or the quiet before things get super busy. It’s eerily quiet.

But truthfully I could do with a bit of a storm. I’ve had something of a drought around here lately and I’m in the mood for a new opportunity or a lucky break of some sort. You know the kind that come along and just sweep you off your feet? I wouldn’t mind being swept off my feet right about now.

So in my lethargic and hopeless state lately I have been sewing little seeds here and there. Knocking on a few doors and while I haven’t been up to shouting my intentions from the rooftops (re: too sleepy), I have been sending the universe little postcards of intent – and sending some emails too. 

I'm looking forward to someone or something coming along and shaking my life up a bit - but, you know, in a good way. Bad news can just bugger off please, and hello new and fun opportunities!

Photos snapped in Fez last December.